Victimization of My Life

Things are only as important as you want them to be?

Well, said.

For the past little while, like 2 years, my life has been half lived because of boys. No not half lived exactly coz I've done everything I wanted. Move to a new city, do more travelling than I every thought I'd do...

But always at the bottom of my heart I was longing for a boy. Nah, I shall no longer blame. It was all as much me as them, you know? I chose to be the victim here too.

Maybe, just maybe for the next little while I shall give it a rest. It is understandable in the most basic of senses that my biological clock is ticking. That it is natural for me to be wanting a man in my life. Doh, and the older I get apparently it gets worse.

So then mabe it would be a good idea to give it a rest.

Just for me to get my bearings down. Just for a little breather, time to really just appreciate being on my own. To actually embrace it instead of putting on a whole circus show. Time to be me for the sake of being me.